The day my life was turned upside down...

Abah...kesayangan semua.

I've been trying to gather some courage to write about this. About abah. He left us on 9/9/2013.The saddest day of my life. I never knew sorrow until the day he left. Tears are running down my cheek as I type this...

Abah...

The best father a child could ever asked for. He raised a big family with dignity. He tried to be fair to all of us, he did his best to make us happy. His wish was to have us grow up to be a good muslim/muslimah. There was nothing he wanted more than to have his wives and kids to obey Allah in all aspects of life.

Mekah, 2011

Ya Allah, I can't even begin to describe how I felt that night when I saw him lying there on the bed. Lifeless. I felt like a little girl then. Sitting by his deathbed. My inside was screaming. Wished with all my might that he would wake up and hug me. I just wanted to cuddle by his side, hug him and never let go. But all I could do was cried and cried and cried.

My abah. He's supposed to be our strength. Our pillar. Our support system. Our love. Our smile. Our sunshine. Our happiness. Our everything. He was there for 33 years of my life. And then suddenly he was gone. No warning. No nothing.

Allah. Allah. Allah. How do I go on without him?

No one understand how it felt like. Part of me was gone that night. Inside. Felt empty.  I still couldn't find that missing part until now. I suspect it would be gone forever. Never come back.

Life isn't the same anymore without abah. You're greatly missed. Forever will be. Until the day we unite again.

Al-fatihah untuk abah. Moga kami menjadi anak soleh yang sentiasa mendoakan kebaikan abah di alam sana. 

Ya Allah, balaslah setiap kebaikan abah walaupun sebesar zarah, dengan ehsanMu dan pahala yang berlipat kali ganda. Ameen Ya Rabb.

Allah...Allah...Allah...

"..Adakah patut kamu menyangka bahawa kamu akan masuk syurga, padahal belum sampai kepada kamu (ujian dan cubaan) seperti yang telah berlaku kepada orang orang yang terdahulu daripada kamu? Mereka telah ditimpa kepapaan (kemusnahan hartabenda) dan serangan penyakit, serta digoncangkan (oleh ancaman bahaya musuh), sehingga berkatalah Rasul dan orang-orang yang beriman yang ada bersamanya: Bilakah (datangnya) pertolongan Allah?" Ketahuilah sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah itu dekat (asalkan kamu bersabar dan berpegang teguh kepada ugama Allah). 

                                                                                                        (Al-Baqarah:214)

Memetik kata someone close to me : Jannah is a sacred, holy place. Syurga tu bersih, suci. How can we enter Jannah when we ourselves are so filthy? So be thankful for all the ujian. Jangan ingat Allah tak sayang. Sebab sayang lah Allah bagi ujian. Sebab Allah nak bersihkan kita, and by giving us hardships He's preparing us for Jannah. Subhanallah. Now I realized how much You love me. Thank you Allah.

Ya Allah give me the strength...

I have not been updating this blog for too long. So much has happened in my life since the last update. So many things. One recent happening has changed my life. Yeah...That's right. My life has been changed. Forever.

It will never be the same anymore...

OMG!!!!

Hahahahahaha!

And the countdown begins...

Excited tunggu hujung bulan as lil bro will turn 6 m.o. And he is gonna have his 1st solid then weehoo!!!

This is an excerpt from Babycenter...

You can introduce solids any time between 4 and 6 months if your baby is ready. Until then, breast milk or formula provides all the calories and nourishment your baby needs and can handle. His digestive system simply isn't ready for solids until he nears his half-birthday.

The American Academy of Pediatrics recommends that babies be breastfed exclusively for at least six months – though parents will attest that some babies are eager and ready to eat solids earlier.

How will I know when my baby's ready?

Your baby will give you clear signs when he's ready to move beyond liquid-only nourishment. Cues to look for include:

1)Head control. Your baby needs to be able to keep his head in a steady, upright position.

2)Losing the "extrusion reflex." To keep solid food in his mouth and then swallow it, your baby needs to stop using his tongue to push food out of his mouth.

3)Sitting well when supported. Even if he's not quite ready for a highchair, your baby needs to be able to sit upright to swallow well.

4)Chewing motions. Your baby's mouth and tongue develop in sync with his digestive system. To start solids, he should be able to move food to the back of his mouth and swallow. As he learns to swallow efficiently, you may notice less drooling – though if your baby's teething, you might still see a lot of drool.

5)Significant weight gain. Most babies are ready to eat solids when they've doubled their birth weight (or weigh about 15 pounds) and are at least 4 months old.

6)Growing appetite. He seems hungry – even with eight to ten feedings of breast milk or formula a day.

7)Curiosity about what you're eating. Your baby may begin eyeing your bowl of rice or reaching for a forkful of fettuccine as it travels from your plate to your mouth.

Oh yes, the lil bro has indeed develop interest in whatever it is on our plate since last couple of week. But it ain't fettuccine, that's for sure. The first time he ever showed interest in food, it was in a plate of NASI KANDAQ my brother was having. Homaiiii anak mamak sangat tauuuu!!!! *pengsan*

Let's change for the better!

Just when I'm all excited for the upcoming election, my beloved beloved blackberry went kaput on me. I can't go online, and I have so many things going on in my life right now so it's really a nuisance not to be able to connect to people online! Tskkk.

So perhaps it's time for a CHANGE??? Heeeee!

 

Terlampau!

Still with the obsession. All these for his birthday. And more coming soon. Heeeeee!!! 

Told him "You're lucky tau! Mama dulu mana ada orang layan obsession sampai macam ni!" ^______^

A happy one!

It was my boys birthday on 19th March.

The hubs said we should stop having a celebration every year. But how could I? It's the birthday of my most two cherished pumpkins. Ones who complete me. So how can I not celebrate them who bring joy into my life??? You tell me!

So I prepared a simple celebration for the lil guy at school as he wanted to celebrate it with his friends. The cake was awesome! He picked the design, theme, colors. And he was pretty fussy about it. Wanted a 3-tier cake, can you believe that guy?!?

Told him ONE TIER would be good enough, and alhamdulillah Mimi from Melting Bites did a great job with the cake. He was happy enough with the amazing single tiered cake. ^_______^

 We didn't do anything special or out of ordinary on that day though. However, I did feel like it was their best birthday ever just because we got to spend time together. Alhamdulillah. And towards the evening, just when the big guy thought that the day was all about celebrating the day his son was born, I took out the little surprise I prepared for him the night before. The 'kek lapis meri' that he loves so much! Made with love by moi, which is what makes it so special for him. Haha :-p

I love you darling. I would never ever forget the special day of the one who lend me his 'tulang rusuk' now, would I? ;-)

That night after the little 'surprise' episode, I overheard the lil guy - who had a hard time keeping the secret from his dad - asking : "Abah, you thought there was no cake for you huh? Mana bolehhhh. Semua orang mesti dapat cake on their birthday! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABAH". Omigosh, is this boy the sweetest or what?!?!? 

On the other hand, my dad said "Lepas dia kahwin nanti, kalau bini dia tak celebrate dengan cake, jenuh dia merajuk kot". So I guess I should always give an advance warning to my future DIL about his little obsession. Muahahahaha!

Cutest Little Thing

We are having a "Back In Business' promo for our mini diaper cake. Check out our biz blog here :

http://twinkywinkystars.blogspot.com/2013/03/back-in-business-promo.html

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Disney Toy Shelf : We Want!

He is back to Spidey obsession. Last birthday we were relieved to be able to get him something other than Spidey. Ni dah nak everything Spiderman balikkkkk.

A couple of months before his birthday, while we were cleaning up his room he said to me "I wish I have a toy rack like Abang Ariez. So easy to keep toys" with a sad face. I knew that it was his muka sedih olok-olok  but I also knew that he knew that his mom would definitely fell for it. Pandai anak aku ni tauuuu!

So I went and google around to see if I can find anything like it and apparently they even have Spiderman's design now! So mak dia pun dah tergedik la nak beli for him.

But then,  recently he asked for the Spiderman/Marvel tab sleeve pulak. I asked him to choose which he wanted and he said he can't choose. Dua2 pun nak! Hahaha. Melampau kan! And who knew what he would ask for in a couple more days.

Since we are treating him to a holiday for his birthday soon, I am just gonna put his birthday present on hold dulu lah. Let's see after we come back, maybe he'd change his mind and would want something else. 

That boy changes his mind like he changes his clothes!